Wednesday, August 28, 2013

2 years later...

    I'm back to blogging.. what an irony. Well, life for the past 2 years was tough, challenging, yet impactful.

A lot of things happened for the past few years. What I thought to be the happiest thing in my life turns out to be the biggest scar I might have.  What a hell I went through; but come to think of it, it might be a second chance for me to do things that I did not do, and NOT to do things that I have done. There were no way I could reverse time. What that has been done, has been done. All I can do is to learn a lesson out of it. I still cling on dearly to the belief of the 'special one' That one day, I can laugh and tease each other without any fear of offending each other. That, should be the way. Not the fear of what the other person might think whenever you make a decision. I always wanted someone supportive and forgiving.. Simple as that. someone that says "It's okay.. we all make mistakes", and smiles cheerfully again.

     Words could not express my testimony for the past 2 years. But one thing for sure is, there were ups and downs. The downs has already happened. Live with it. Dear someone special, I'll be waiting. =)

   I always believed, that in every one, there are two sides. the real 'him/her', and the other side that only reveals itself according to situations and environment. The side that shape shifts to blend in, to be accepted. The one I saw 2 years ago, was the other side. As i got into her comfortable state, I saw the real her. But feelings were all too deep. It made me question the true meaning of love. Are we accepting our loved ones for who they are? Or are we just pulling our level of .... I dont know what's that word.. requirement? expectation? moral value? Does love has a definite answer, I wonder. Or does it sway according to experience and to each individual? I wonder...