God's love ... doesn't make sense

Lets just put it this way.

- God is the King

- We sin against Him, something like breaking the law...

- He as a King, dies for our crimes.

- Its like Its like Yang Berhormat Najib dies for the crimes we did...

- How great is our God, Amen??

YOU

You make me very happy sometimes. Make me think about you every night before i sleep. Make me think how to have more fun with you. But sometimes, you make me very angry and upset. If i see you in the morning, you might cheer up my day or even ruin my day. I don't know what should i do with you.

DOTA LA! WHAT ELSE

Miracles.

I have a cousin tat had breast cancer for quite some time. He had been suffering for these past years. She even went through kemo. Few weeks ago, she was admitted to hospital. Her heartbeat stopped suddenly. She was 'gone' for that moment. My relatives and everyone there cried for her to return and to "wake up", no to sleep yet. Few minutes later, she had her heartbeat back. She told them to call her father and her brother that were non- Christians. She asked " I went to heaven and met my Father in heaven and came back. I want to ask you. Do you want to accept the Lord as your personal saviour?" Her dad(my uncle) knew about God, joined them for cell group discussion and heard them discussing. He can even talk about Christ with the church members. But he was stubborn. Until that very moment, they said YES. And then my cousin replied "That my job here is done." And she went with the Lord permanently. So, never quit or be tired of sharing until your last breath because God has his plans and his perfect timing for everything. To me, this is worth testifying to you guys. I hope it can speak to you one way or another. God bless.

Permanent

Is this the moment where i look you in the eye?

Forgive my broken promise that you'll never see me cry

And everything it will surely change

Even if i tell you i won't go away today

Will you think that you're all alone

When no one's there to hold your hand?

When all you know seems so far away

And everything is temporary rest your head

I'm permanent

I know he's living in hell every single day

And so i ask oh god is there some way for me to take his place?

And when they say it's all touch and go

I wish i could make it go away but still you say

Will you think that you're all alone

When no one's there to hold your hand?

When all you know seems so far away

And everything is temporary rest your head

I'm permanent i'm permanent

Is this the moment where i look you in the eye?

Forgive my promise that you'll never see me cry

SHOCK

Every day I just can’t control

Every night the loneliness is my love

Can’t breathe, my body’s getting stiff like an ice

Hey dear, stay here, I’m going blind

No way losing my way, why are you drifting away?

I don’t want to get hurt, but what will we do with my love struck heart?

I don’t hear anything

I don’t see anything

Oh, ever since you’ve left

I couldn’t focus on anything else

Everything stopped, and now it's over

And my existence is fading away

Even if I close my eyes

You're still fading away from my memories

I’m sorry, please come back to my side

Because of you I can’t focus on anything else.

Come to me tonight

I don't think I can ever wake up from my shock

Hey ya, wake up

Once I wake up, you’re not by my side

Oh lalalalalala, now you’re laughing like a lunatic

I’m struggling everyday against the clashing waves of loneliness

I can’t forget you for the rest of my life

If I knew it would be like this, I would have held you back

Then it wouldn't have been so hard

Oh, even if I try to embrace you once more

I can’t, cuz I can't even move a single finger

It’s hard to breath

And my heart hurts.

The more I think about you

The longer I idle while sitting down

And I can’t get anything done

Every night in my dream

I can’t

Hear your voice

So, where are you?

If you’re happy to be away from my side

Then I will try to hold in my tears for you

BEAST- Shock

FRIENDS... They are one of the reason you are what you are now

Aaron's goin UK. Nat's goin UK. Yu Kit went s'pore. Sigh... More and more friends are leaving the country for a better future. Somehow, you can feel the quitness without their presence. I really hope there won't be anymore of my friends that will leave la...

You'll think back the old days, where we used to laugh together, talking bout the lamest joke and still laugh with it. Friends that accept you even if you have weak spots or bad attitudes. Thosee times where we all cherish together. Money can't buy it back. Therefore, cherish each and every good friend of yours, before its too late. For friends are the ones who sacrifices their time and money to call you and ask " Hei, are you okay?" and listen to your problems. They double your joy and half your sorrows.

But there are times of conflicts and misunderstandings among each other. Assumptions were made to blame the other party. And that is the time where you dig out the dark moments and blast them all out at once. "Last time I treat you so good, and this is how you treat me!" There are also times where you finally know your friend's "real self". The Friend you know last time doesn't react like the way they are reacting now.

I learnt a lot of stuff. Not through experience, but through my friends. It is my friends who encounter all these problems, and they share it to me. Lucky me, I'll absorb the knowledge and try my very best to avoide those problems. SMKSBS, I miss you guys.. T.T

SUPERB HARMONIZING!!

Man, I miss those days. After SPM, we go again. XD

I laughed when i look at this again

MAT KOOL MAT KOOL KAWANKU

It was so cold outside. Feel like sleeping here instead of the room

Posing nicely

Starting of the whole trip. 1st day

Posing like ENERGIZER

The picture says it all

One year later

One Year Later

It feels like I've been dreaming for a long time

I've wandered and wandered around for a while

As if we made a promise

Standing here in front of each other like that day from four seasons ago

Those beautiful stories that we wrote down together

Those eternal promises that we prayed for at that time

They're all coming back to me now and I don't think my heart can take it

I've even restrained myself at the thought of you

How has your one year been

For a long time, I've been living, having forgotten of you

For a while, I thought I was doing fine

However I started to realize it as time passed by

That I am nothing without you

At that time,

if only we had been a bit more mature

If only we knew how we would be right now

I have no confidence in overcoming these endless regrets

So I've had to just repress them

One year has passed like that

Could your feelings perhaps be the same as mine?

Will you give me another chance?

I know now that we can never part from each other

The one person I love and love again

I wish we can go back to our first days

To the beautiful, happy and loving days

Those heart-breaking stories and vain arguments

Just bury all of that now

And promise that we won't take them out again

No matter how many seasons pass and how many years go by

I hope that we won't meet like today again

Our Song...

One year later - SNSD feat Onew

I hav twitter now. Jus made. Cuz lyna call me try it out.. Pls let me know if u hav twitter and ur name in twitter so tat i can 'follow' u. Jus making a quick update.

My Prayer

Forgive me O Lord,

if I have grudges against others in my heart that I do not know myself.

Grant me, O Lord,

The patience and perseverance so that I can forgive , just like what You did on the cross;

Show me O Lord,

The path that you have set for my life so that I can live in your ways,

Provide me O Lord,

the guidance and wisdom that I need as I continue to work for Your kingdom.

Bless me O Lord,

so that I can bless others.

Love me O Lord,

so that I can love others like how You loved me.

Thank You O Lord,

for You as a King, died for the sins that we commited

Hillsong- All I need Is You

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUNT JASMINE!!!

A friend's confession mv.

A Friend's Confession

It's been a while since my heart has been changing,

since I've been dealing with it lonesome.

.every time you came back,

I hated the guy that made you cry

I'd rather protect you,

although I don't know if it will make it better...

This time I'll hold you and love you is what I thought

As a friend, to remain as friends,

I had to push the confessions down my throat

But now I'll confess to you,I love you...

You hold my hand and tell me you only have me

Keeping me as a friend,you say it's a blessing

Whenever you say let's never change,I had to push my feelings down

It might be best if I protect you,

not knowing if it will be better

I kept hearing it but I kept cool

I was too scared to lose you

Is it me or what?

Its very HOT!!!! I sit down and play dota oso can sweat like i just finished a basketball game... Watchin "money no enuf 2" Still remember when me, Ming, TC, and KT go watch. We cried in the cinema. XP Its really sad. Cleaned my hse today cuz of CNY. I found the notes we used for oral last year about Dr. Jekyll n Mr. Hyde under my bed. The notes were written when ming n the gang came to my hse to do the oral thingy. So, try look under ur bed n see wat can u find there... XD

HAPPY CNY AND VALENTINE'S DAY!!!

Title? umm... 12 Feb?

Today my parents went for dinner to celebrate..... VALENTINE'S DAY!! haha.. Whole comeputer to me. No one to nag n say "rest your eyes ah", " BENJAMIN GOH! Off it now..", "jus now u say 5 minute, now say 5 minute again". Well, I was wondering. Am I able to love my wife forever, seeing the same face everyday that I won't be bored of... Well, 'Seek 1st the kingdom of God and everything else shall be added unto u.' Amen? XD Lots of things happening in my homeschool. Backstabbing especially. In SBS, we be patient with tat person. If he/she is really off limit, we tell him/her straight forward. Wanna change or not, up to him/her. Right, Ming? haha.... God has put me in a safe surrounding for the past few years. Now, its my turn to bring the safe surrounding around. A school full of frens, knowing each other's name, taking critism as jokes, sarcasm without offending other ppl. I miss those days. ^^ O ya. I made my blog more interesting to read by adding color n diff font size. (inspired by Gwen's blog. XP)


Rascal Flatts - What hurts the most

HOME SCHOOL

It all started with me goin home school. Now, CJJ IS GOIN HOME SCHOOL ALSO!!!. Gwen... When is ur turn la... T.T

"naega idong wedding dress"

1st week of School

Well, It has been a good week for me cuz i can make new frens and add more names into my list of frens.. ^^ The 1st fren i knew there was a guy name Emerson. If u notice, the 1st fren u know in the new skul will kinda be ur best fren in tat skul. And I'm in the school basketball team. Yeah!!! XD

And this subject you're about to read is gonna giv u a shock. We hav a ROJAK DAY in skul. Every Thursday during skul, a classmate of mine will take order from the whole school, yelling "Who wants to order rojak?" and "Final call!!! Who wants rojak?". It seems that the rojak guy use to come every thursday at 10am-12 pm cuz every thursday we will order from him. Jus imagine if SBS got 'nasi lemak day' or 'sushi day'. XD

To make the SBS students, I'm gonna list out wat i like bout homeschoolong :

- No uniforms, pinafore, baju kurung
- No need tuck in shirt. (during skul and PJ)
- ROJAK DAY!
- No canteen. So, bring own food from home and save money. Can bring pork oso. XP
- I can kinda join college when I'm 17.
- Handphones are allowed in school.
- Lots of activities.


Well, That's all, Folks.. o(^.^)o

H/Soul - Hwanhee

1st Day of School

Well, I'm kinda like a stranger in the new school. The break time for today was 2 hours because it was the 1st day. I had 2 hours to walk around to make new frens.. Tips for u guys who wanna switch skul. If you're frenly n easy to approach, BRING A NOTEBOOK. You'll have difficulties remembering their names.. Well, today i get to know Justin, Jason, Jonathan, Sheldon, Trisha, Yi Shua, and another guy tat i forgot his name. Darn. And guess wat... I'm in the skul basketball team!!! XD pro leh... How bout ur 1st day in skul? blog it up...


And to Jia and Gwen... NO LENG ZHAI!! Even if got, boy girl relationship(BGR or nenene)is prohibited in our skul. whether inside or outside skul. My teacher calls it nenene cuz boy girl relationship is sooooo long. She dunno sumthin called BGR =.=

So, Vicki... Did u get into the same class as C. Pauline? XP pls tell me who is same class wit who.. Wanna know whether my gang got split up or not. Well, I guess this is long enuf as 'updated'.


O ya. U kit.. U too. blog it up bout S'pore. We would like to hear more about u.... Peter, and carmen mok... They have Korean language class here.. XP